Insight!!!

Was just surfing through the orkut profiles of my friends...
Found a very interesting line - "Learn to forgive people, otherwise even you won't be able to live happily!"
So true!!! Although 'forgiving' is a very rare quality, very few possess it. Most others - the mere mortals, so to say - can't do the forgiving act. What they seek is a permanent, full-on "Clossure" !!!
More on Clossures, some other time!!!

Cheers,
Rash

Somethings that I'd really cherish in my life...

• Waking up early and going for a long walk daily, across the morning streets with hubby dear
• Having a cute little duplex house which I can decorate with my own hands
• Having the best of health and a perfect bod…
• I am a software person but I would not cherish coding… instead I would love my career to be focused towards Information Systems Management or Data Analysis
• Having at least one hour daily to read a book of my choice, that is not related to my work
• Driving a little sedan of my choice… I do not hope for SUVs…
• Having few choicest but the best of friends around
• Having one little kid who is healthy and cute
• Having a maid who can cook good and healthy food and who can clean utensils
• I wouldn’t mind cleaning my house on my own :)
• Having a job place which is not very far away from my house
• Living in a place where weather is moderate… It does not snow or rain like crazy

I am sure this list is not exhaustive... I love life and I make sure I try to extract joy from little things.... Will post more of this as and when i remember... :)

Till then,

Have Fun... seek life...

Cheers

Rash

Right now there is a big void...
I can't seem to relate to my blog...
But the one thing I know for sure is that this is something I would love to stick on to.
Hopefully this lull gets over soon...

-Rash

I hate those who give emotional shit to their friends and folks just to get their work done... And on top of that they have the guts to think that they can easily pass off doing this without getting noticed...

Big hypocrites!!! I would love to ask my friends in their face for a favor, rather than being topsy-turvy... It works that way. The only thing that I follow here is I ask for a favor only when I think that I can return it back... That way my friends feel that even they are cared for... And I really do care for them...

Of Ambitions and Expectations...

My Grandfather always wanted me to be a doctor… He was a doctor himself and wanted someone to take on his mettle after him. When I was young, even I dreamt of being a doctor... for that matter a Neuro-Surgeon one day. I remember telling my relatives, as a child, proudly “I want to become a doctor” whenever they asked me.

All of my childhood, I kinda cherished this dream. Sometimes I used to read my Grandpa’s books that he had in his collection – about human anatomy, various diseases and all. He used to tell many things about his profession. I could see that he loved talking about his experiences as a doctor. I used to envisage myself doing the same some time down the lane. But as I grew up, things changed. It became clearer to me that as fancy as the profession looks, it is dead difficult to be into it. The cut-throat competitive entrance exams, the long grueling hours to continuous studies and the eternally long time the degree takes to be completed… it was all just too scary for me. Plus after you have earned your degree, the investment that goes into setting up your own clinic is altogether a different story…

Initially I tried to prepare myself mentally for all this, thinking that this hard work would definitely reap me some wonderful benefits. But, somewhere inside my heart, I knew that I was falling weak…. This dream became far from achievable for me… I hate myself for accepting this but the fact is that I backed out even before trying.

I chose an easy way out. I went for engineering… It’s not that no efforts go into engineering studies. But we should accept that they are far less than a medical degree. Those four years of engineering were a cake-walk for me. I also landed into my dream job after completing my degree and managed to earn a fat salary. Life has been really very smooth after that. I do love my present career as a Software Professional and dream of earning an MBA somewhere down the lane, just to enhance it further more….

But the one thing that I can not forget is that this career was a second choice… and that I played second fiddle in one of the most important decisions of my life… That’s the regret that’ll remain with me all through…

Trying Heads or Tails for the first time… The prompt for this week is “Doctor”

I like to give everything a second chance...

And most of the times it works!!! :)

Blessings...

My little sis Anchu got married yesterday! :)
Can't believe my little sweetheart has grown up and is a newly wed bride now...
My choicest blessings to her... actually to both of them...
May Anchu and Ruman live the happiest of lives together!!! :)

P.S.: Couldn't attend the wedding ceremony... But I am gonna attend the big function that has to be held formally in December!!!

Ghost...

No matter how much I dart…
To seek my prospect
No matter how much I hunt…
For my destiny
No matter how much I struggle…
To shed my old colors
No matter how much I wait…
For a new spring to come
No matter how hard I try…
To sever ties with you
Still you hold on to me. Firm…
Like you have haunted me
My eerie past – you are my apparition…

The prompt in Sunday Scribblings for this week was "Ghost". This is my take for it...

A Little Confession...

They say “The best way to come out of one’s guilt is to confess!”

The other day I was feeling very low. I was thinking about all the bad things that I have done so far. What conspicuously hit me were the two incidences when I yelled at my mom like a crazy dog… that too for no fault of hers. I remembered them distinctly because I also made her cry then… :(

I know children always take their mothers for granted. In a family like ours, my father, though is not a very strict person at all by nature had a different understanding with us. We used to talk to him a lot… I loved playing Chess with him. But I could never talk to him as a friend and goes without saying…. Could never take him “for granted”. On the other hand, my mother was always like a friend to me. I talked everything out to her… even my crushes!!! Guess that was the reason why I took her so much for granted…

I have had fights with my mom, but I made it a point never to yell at her, but for these two instances. They were not some big issues; but they still pissed me off and as a result, mom, who bears with me all the time, became the target of my wrath… I know it was really mean of me… But I guess I had lost it then and ended up barking my anger out… Mom was just listening and after hearing to my crap (which by the way deeply hurt her) for sometime, she just silently sobbed. She didn’t utter even a single word! It struck me big time. Had she hit me there and then, I would have felt a lot lighter and would not have been gripped by this guilt. But she just didn’t say anything and yet her face conveyed to me how hurt she was by my mean onslaught… Believe me, to this day, I have not been able to forgive myself for that.

On the other hand, if asked, my mom will not even remember those incidences. She is just too sweet to forgive me all the time. I guess moms are just this sweet! :) I wish I could grow up to be as sweet, as tolerant and as forgivable as her.

I am really very sorry Aai…

Hope this confession eases out that little corner of my heart from this weighty guilt…

Love changes you for good!!!!

And if it doesn't... then it's not love...